Day of Peace

A pleasant day today, productive and restful. But I think I'm only enjoying the day because it was productive. I want to get past all this negative emotion and be able to focus more on the good things in my life. I know there is so much more that is wonderful in my life than not, but most days I only see the bad.

I think in some ways that's a defense mechanism. If I only see the bad, I can prepare emotionally and not be disappointed. But its not reality. I promised myself after Grace admitted her addiction that I would not hide anymore; that I would look for and acknowledge the truth from now on. That means more than listening to the nagging doubts when they surface. It means recognizing the blessings in my life too.

Today's Blessings:

• The sun shone just a little bit,  it was not a steady rain like yesterday
• Melody smiled at me
• Hubby sold his motorcycle after realizing he had way to much of his ego and identity wrapped up in that machine. I'm proud of him.
• Grace got her car running again - and thanked her dad for helping her.
• I am employed
• The spring time colors on the rodys are specular around every corner
• We have wonderful neighbors who love us daily
• Grace is making progress and gets to have Melody overnight tomorrow
• I have wonderful friends and a wonderful church family
• I know the God of the universe loves me like crazy
• I have hope for my future

Ahhhh, life is good....